Cadaverously

So after reading some notes and stuff i decided to just do a quick write with the goal being to end it up sounding more haunted/desperate. Here it goes... You are always on my mind. I don't always think-think  about you. But you're always there. You never leave. Despite all this confusion, it hurts, but in a different way. Without pain I wouldn't know who I was. I need it. But this is not like pain-pain. This pain is different. I can't explain it. It makes me hurt, it makes my heart sob.. It doesn't hurt like a sharp pain, but a throbbing one. Like my heart is going to burst right out of my chest.. it hurts.. but I want it there. It keeps me

I still miss her, to be honest. I say I'm over her, I say that after 2 years I've chalked it up to fate, but... the truth is, I miss her every day. And every day I wonder if she's off living a wonderful life somewhere. Even though I'm still bitter, I hope she's happy.

It's my birthday >.> I had a lot of fun just going swimming and going to the park. Sorry to every1 for not being on for a while though I have a new drawing and also a new poem to put up. Hope you enjoy them